I've been putting these requests off for so long because it just seems natural for me to shove God out of the way and only pay attention to him when I feel like it. but here they are, I hate to vent to people online, but I feel like I NEED someone to hear me.
First off, I am a runner, I run Track and Cross Country and despite what some people think about running, I love it. Last February after coming out of a wrestling season, I injured my knee. The doctors can't figure out what is wrong with my knee and I've been praying God will heal me so I can do what I love and continue running, maybe even in college.
I started to adjust to not being able to work out much, but five days ago I fell about 41/2 feet while rock climbing straight onto my ankle. My ankle is practically immobile with tissue damage, "internal" bleeding, and possible torn ligaments and bone fractures. and I am in a great deal of pain and I can't even walk without crutches. I know God may be doing this to bring me through a valley in order to draw me closer towards him in my walk, but I can't help thinking he may be punishing me for the way I've been slowly sub-consciously secularizing my life and straying away from his path.
I want to grow closer to Christ and I feel dead when I am not walking with him. I know this is an incredibly selfish request, whining about a bad knee and an ankle that hurts, but I am extremely unhappy, and I just want God to turn my life around.
PLEASE, IF ANYONE READS THIS, PRAY FOR ME.